“"Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people." —Eleanor Roosevelt”—
Gossip and news about events or ideas sensationalized is the equivalent of gossip. These discussions, though sometimes pleasurable, are meaningless.
This is why I rather spend the large chunk of weekend at home working on ideas instead of out talking about.. nothing.
Also nice to have the occasional reminder that reading any of those viral articles rarely brings any insight. When you’re entrenched in this stuff, the best thing is to put more hours into your craft and improve, not pretend you’re improving by rereading what you already know. No need to validate, have you the confidence that you’re doing it right?
All my life I’ve been told to talk more, speak up more, make more noises.
Let me tell you, that is a waste of time. Instead of wasting energy on combating introversion, embrace it.
Do not waste time forcing yourself to talk more for the sake of talking. Allow yourself to immerse into the environment and people, figure out where you can contribute meaningfully. You will make more noise naturally because you found the right outlet and timing to do so.
So, do not appease the extrovert, no matter how oppressing.  You waste everyone’s time with meaningless repetitive comments for the sake of showcasing your voice if you give in. 
And do not worry, there’s always a fellow introvert somewhere in there who is silently rooting for you. After all, the loudest in the group are always the extroverts.
And as for the extroverts, my advice is really, leave the introverts alone. Don’t use quantity of voice heard as a measurement for contribution, but instead, use quality of meaningful things said as such.
Let yourself be, and things will follow, especially if you have the drive to make what you’re doing better.
1. Granted, if they just don’t get it.. It’s time to leave that circle. Some people will just be assholes no matter what. That’s another post all together: there will always be assholes.
2. Because fuck teachers which use this as a measurement for “participation” grades. It’s really the worst.
This is based on the well known promo image for Autumn’s Concerto (下一站幸福), aka the best drama ever. (Unfortunately, I liked it so much it ruined anything I watched after it.. so lo’ and behold: high standards and more free time.)
And for the curious, these were the colours used in the piece.
The instagrams which documented this magic. Much, much credit to the newly obtained copic white opaque paint. I’ve never worked with such a smooth yet opaque formula. Totally recommended. I bought mine off Amazon. (It ships prime if you have it!)
I’ve been told to improve many, many times. And it’s always been true. I’m still paying my dues, learning, improving. I think I’ll always be on some front. 
However, I was once delivered this great insult: You lack depth. 
I know I spend tons of time sketching, sewing, doing things which do not contribute directly to my career. Hell, it’s not even just that: To tell me to stop “wasting time” on these things and to invest it into “more meaningful” projects is so lost.
I’m not sure why all my life there was someone who was so compelled, someone who would proceed to put great effort into making me feel so miserable about the things I love. As much as I say I’m over this, it’s still too close for comfort.
Also, I know most do not think this. It’s the exception who did. And yet, it’s still the greatest insult, and I believe it be the greatest insult for anyone who cares about their craft. To say one lacks depth all while knowing about these loves is the greatest insult.
And to the rest of you, I’ll let you know…
I’m still slaying these demons…
And when I finish, I hope the journey will be a fulfilling one. And I hope I find my principle. 
…Then, it will continue.
I finally figured out how to articulate this.
0. Let’s be clear: I appreciate constructive critique. Maybe not at first, which is sadly a side effect of being sensitive, but definitely in retrospect. I’m admitting to that.
1. Perhaps using an iceberg here is a complete shallow, surface level depiction. However, when an audience sees an iceberg, they’ll think of the underneath majesty. That’s what I want you to see here… Look at anyone and all you see is the tip; do not force anything onto them because your insight is only the tip. That’s the lesson I want to convey. That’s what I want you to keep in mind. It’s also something I’m striving to keep in mind.
2. I just watched a great talk about this. It’s Bret Victor’s Inventing on Principle.
3. I think articulating it in blog form is especially useful. Thanks for your eyes.
Seeing these ink+nib sketches makes me want to upgrade above the play set I have.
In between all of this action, there have been plans to start a cross-country collab blog. & of course, everything that comes with having a fulltime job - thanks Mr. President for the day off! It’s weird, have less energy to assemble these posts than I cared to during university, especially design posts. /thinking out loud
This particular set was tough.. Every dot was painstakingly pasted individually. Took a few tries to get the poppies to set too (flimsy vinyl with heavy big section anchored to skinny section =s trouble).
Sizable Copic collection from the glory days. The sad reality is it’s very hard to be very good at everything. Unfortunately, lots are cursed with this blessing of being supremely interested in related, but rather different, fields. (I think lots are, or at least, I am.)
There is only so much time to develop a true expertise, so choosing what to spend it on is vital. I’m writing this because for damn reason, putting things public makes me commit. So here we go: the focus is building a product. Focus on the skills which come with that. Meaning, painting, coloring, sewing, gaming, and so on so on are on the backburner.
"Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" Don't like this question; it needs iterating.
A popular interview question as well as one which close friends may ask.. “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?”
I’m going to take a step back. 22.. 17. So, if you asked me where I’d be seeing myself as a 22 y/o, as a 17 y/o, my answer would have been “Pursuing a masters degree in.. technical animation. Then applying for PhD.” Something wishy washy like that, aligned with the fact I thought pursuing the rote of degrees was the key to success. I definitely wouldn’t have said, “Just finished my masters degree in HCI and have an awesome job in the user experience design field with no intention of returning to academia anytime soon. Living in the SFBA with a 3x6ft whiteboard in my apartment trying to figure out something worth making for the long run.” That’s the tl;dr. There are so many details worth mentioning that would have never crossed my 17 year old mind. Like,
With that in mind, I need to stop asking myself this question. It really does yield no results. It’s not to say one shouldn’t have goals, but that the outcome of the future is unpredictable in the details. Instead of wasting time pondering about the future, more time needs to be spent actively working towards it.
22.. 27. Who knows what and where I will be then. I sure don’t.
And that’s all right.
tl;dr Having a vision is good. Just don’t sweat the details. Then you’ll never get there because you’re too busy wiping away the sweat.