The beginning of Fall is my true New Year. It’s around this time I’ve reflected on my career, finished degrees, and asked the hard questions.
This time, I tell you my Personal Vision 2014 and Beyond. Just kidding, these are simply things I’ve figured out for myself.
Be honest with yourself
When explaining what I do for a living, I kept following up with this corollary—One day, I’m going to retire and become an artist.
This was always the ten year plan, a far cry in the distant future, so shining.
I asked myself, have you looked at your own work? It’s heavily sketch, heavily art, my best design pieces were always the artiest ones. You don’t need to use a watercolor pencil for your wireframes people. In fact, that’s totally absurd.
People, first and foremost, think of me as a great sketcher, not a great designer.
Granted, I think I’m all right at design. Though, I think it’s the same as how Lady Gaga had a fantastically trained voice pre-Lady Gaga. That didn’t get her very far.
That’s how I feel about my designs these days. I’m not sure if I can get that far. I’m not sure if I want to get that far.
It’s a balancing act
Throughout this entire self reflection process, a smart fellow reminded me that identity is a constant struggle—No one figures it out all at once. There’s always some amount of back and forth.
Maybe this time next year, I’ll look back at this post and think “Boy, what kind of funk was I in?”
To declare what I aim to do today does not define what I’m bound to do for the rest of my life or even the year after.
I realized life itself is iteration, really.
It’s very okay to be in this state. This state of not liking what I used to like doing as much.
The impossible is totally possible
Previously, I’ve said all it took was an email. I’m going to say it once more—Having a hand in putting design event together is and was, in fact, a bunch of emails!
On the same note, when the possibility of putting together a friends-centric gallery showcase, that possibility lit up something in my conscience. It is possible.
I thought, maybe it’s not a world where all it takes is emails. Instead, it may be phone calls or charming some friends-of-friends.
When the dots connected, the idea of a gallery showcase was the turning point. Suddenly, what I thought would be ten years later could be ten weeks from now.
Suddenly, I felt empowered.
Happiness is a destiny you make for yourself
Everything may change, but you remain constant in your world. It’s really up to you to define your requirements of a happy existence. And then figure out how to make it a reality.
No one else is going to be waiting to do this for you.
This post is inspired by brilliant blog posts written by my friends. Writing isn’t my core competency, but damn, it’s like they say:
Just do it.
Here’s to the 4th year in a row writing a post like this.